Not two hours ago, I was all set to post a nice miserable entry about my ongoing battle with myself, and how I'm losing.
Not thirty minutes ago, I was ready to put up a heartwarming entry on finding hope in the darkest of places, and the resilience of human nature, and not being a quitter.
Well, I'm not nearly as emo as I was two hours ago. Neither am I as hopeful as I was half an hour ago. I'm somewhere in between, and I hope that this is a baseline mood that can be maintained for the next month. If it gets worse than this, all the pressure will cause me to crack like a raw egg. Running yolks will ensue.
I'm trying to make light of the situation, but really, honestly, I'm tired.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Yet do I fear thy nature
Buzz Saw's comment on Akubi's post (Seal Hunt Starts in Less than 3 Days) was:
I don't see how anyone could kill such a cute, defenseless, and pitiful looking animal. Such sad eyes.
This affected me deeply. In a bad way. Because I find it quite easy to believe that a human being could kill, would kill "such a cute, defenseless, and pitiful looking animal". Without remorse, even. Some might see it as a job. Some might feel a dark thrill.
It's a sickening thought. Extremely disturbing. And my greatest fear.
This is all not good, very bad, absolutely horrible timing.
I don't see how anyone could kill such a cute, defenseless, and pitiful looking animal. Such sad eyes.
This affected me deeply. In a bad way. Because I find it quite easy to believe that a human being could kill, would kill "such a cute, defenseless, and pitiful looking animal". Without remorse, even. Some might see it as a job. Some might feel a dark thrill.
It's a sickening thought. Extremely disturbing. And my greatest fear.
This is all not good, very bad, absolutely horrible timing.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
That time of year thou mayst in me behold
I'm so tired. And it hurts. I think I'm entering another "listless" phase. What horrible timing.
I'm more than a bit irked because I didn't get nearly as much accomplished as I would've liked over the weekend. However, I did manage to complete my art project.
One task checked off, nine hundred and ninety-nine to go.
I'm more than a bit irked because I didn't get nearly as much accomplished as I would've liked over the weekend. However, I did manage to complete my art project.
One task checked off, nine hundred and ninety-nine to go.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Script Frenzy
I have decided to join the frenzy: Script Frenzy, that is.
Who? Me
What? 100 pages of script.
When? April 1 - April 30
Where? wherever I can write
Why? because I have this great plot that I had ready for last year's Script Frenzy, but I never got around to writing it out
How? uh... somehow.
What this means for me is that, before 4/1, I need to wrap up my other side projects, and maybe even get ahead in work (hah! as if! at least I've managed to catch up on work...). Between now and 4/1, I have training, possibly relatives visiting next weekend, and me going on vacation for a week. So I really need to wrap up my art project quickly (it's not technically "due" until July, but I don't want to lose momentum) and keep my focus during work. I managed to get quite a bit done on my art project today, so if I can keep that pace tomorrow, I should be able to wrap it up next weekend; I've only been working on it during weekends because I like doing it in natural light (artificial light creates this nasty glare that makes it hard to work in).
I'm excited! I think the story I have in mind is going to be good. I'm a little worried because I can only envision the beginning and end scenes very clearly, and I'm not entirely certain what's going to happen in the middle. I don't really want to make it super-complex, especially since this is my first screenplay, but I guess I will be throwing in a few more secondary characters than I currently anticipate. They have been forming in the back of my mind while I concentrate on my other tasks. How useful.
Who? Me
What? 100 pages of script.
When? April 1 - April 30
Where? wherever I can write
Why? because I have this great plot that I had ready for last year's Script Frenzy, but I never got around to writing it out
How? uh... somehow.
What this means for me is that, before 4/1, I need to wrap up my other side projects, and maybe even get ahead in work (hah! as if! at least I've managed to catch up on work...). Between now and 4/1, I have training, possibly relatives visiting next weekend, and me going on vacation for a week. So I really need to wrap up my art project quickly (it's not technically "due" until July, but I don't want to lose momentum) and keep my focus during work. I managed to get quite a bit done on my art project today, so if I can keep that pace tomorrow, I should be able to wrap it up next weekend; I've only been working on it during weekends because I like doing it in natural light (artificial light creates this nasty glare that makes it hard to work in).
I'm excited! I think the story I have in mind is going to be good. I'm a little worried because I can only envision the beginning and end scenes very clearly, and I'm not entirely certain what's going to happen in the middle. I don't really want to make it super-complex, especially since this is my first screenplay, but I guess I will be throwing in a few more secondary characters than I currently anticipate. They have been forming in the back of my mind while I concentrate on my other tasks. How useful.
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